Who Doesn't Cry?

Attended a relative's burial today and of course you'll see people crying! Especially the family... They didn't stop crying until the casket is placed 6-feet under the ground. Didn't bring shades to cover my eyes for I promised to myself that I will never shed a single tear. By the time friends/relatives are telling their stories/experiences about the late 'person' they were crying and hearing their stories also makes me wanna cry but I managed to stop these freakin' tears to fall. But when I saw certain people, people who I don't usually see cry, people who I see as the strong ones, people who I usually see laughing their asses off, cry that made me wanna burst into tears... These people's cries are contagious! I realized, though how tough people are, if the person whom they lost is the closest to their hearts, they become vulnerable. I even heard someone saying something like she'll try to distance herself to her friends from that day on so it won't be that painful when they're gone. :( I can't even describe what I felt after hearing that. She has a point, it's really hard losing someone you love and someone you've spent most of your time with. She's crying so hard that she can barely breathe. I can feel the pain and sadness that she feels. But I am so proud of myself that I still controlled myself from rolling on the ground crying. I'm an emotional type of person that by even seeing other people cry makes me cry! 


*sigh* ---> That's all I can say..






P.S. Will try to post pictures on my next entry.. I miss sharing the pictures I personally took in this page of mine :)

Friends, Friends Friends (2)

I have this friend, I don't know what am I gonna do with her. She is SUPER DUPER DEMANDING!!! She wants everybody to follow her commands and if you fail, she'll be very mad at you! Yeah, acting like a queen. She doesn't know how to appreciate. Really. I've been really good to her and give her anything she wants but I have my limitations, I can't just be this friend who will give everything until nothing's left. Of course I also have to think of myself, and every time I would say 'no' to her 'cause she's asking too much and I also have to think of myself she'll tell me that I am selfish?????? Huh???? Selfish?????? Damn!!! Seriously!!! (To all my friends) I am getting tired of you taking me for granted, taking advantage of my kindness! I always give you want you want because I am a good friend! I am not expecting anything in return but little appreciation, a simple 'thank you' will do but where??? Where is that 'thank you'? I've been really nice and patient but you're pushing me to my limits and now I am so freakin' tired of being selfless to people who can't even appreciate. 


I've learned my lessons. Its time for me to think of myself.