I'm Still A Swiftie

The previous night I dreamed about Taylor Swift, ewan, nagparamdam lang siguro, nagtampo dahil di ko na siya pinapansin. Its my third time to dream about her, the first and the second halos ayaw ko ng gumising and sobrang excited ako ikuwento sa mga friends ko. Ikinuwento ko sa halos lahat. Ikaw ba naman maging pinsan mo si Taylor Swift. Ang saya ko lang kasi kahit sa panaginip naging cousin ko siya then super close daw naming and she told me lots of stuffs. Though I know in reality its so impossible. Pero malay natin, ampon lang pala ako ng parents ko then my real parents are Taylor’s too. LOL. *baliw lang*

   

My last dream about Taylor parang totoo kasi dun talagang hamak na fan lang ako and Taylor is Taylor. Nagkaroon daw ako ng chance maging VIP sa ‘meet and greet’ niya kasi I purchased enough products from ‘National Bookstore’ (yes, may ‘National Bookstore’ dun sa panaginip ko) to avail a VIP ticket for her ‘meet and greet’. Pero di ko akalain na yung ‘meet and greet’ eh magiging ‘super hang out with Taylor Swift’. Nakapasok ako sa tinutuluyan niya, pumunta siya sa bahay namin, kinain niya ang kahit anong ipakain namin sa kanya, then tini-tweet niya lahat ng ginagawa naming at mawawala ba naman ang picture-picture? Ang saya niyang kasama. Sobra. So, kinuha ko lahat ng TaySwift collectibles ko sa loob ng bahay, paglabas ko wala na siya. Talagang hinabol ko sa hanggang sa kalsada dala-dala ko lahat ng collectibles, magazines, mug, t-shirt, pictures and posters. Sa kasamaang palad bigla na lang siyang naglaho. Hindi ko na siya nakita, halos mawalan ako ng boses sa sobrang iyak ko at sa kakasigaw ng pangalan niya dahil di ko man lang nakuha yung signature niya. *sigh*

Then, nagising na ako…

Hindi ko alam kung anong ibig sabihin ng panaginip kong yun. Pero siguro nga nagpaparamdam si Taylor Swift (multo??!!). Kasi nung high school ako as in siya ang ultimate fandom ko. Every computer class ipinagpapaliban ko yung mga laboratory works namin dahil busy ako kakasearch ng mga latest about kay Taylor, busy ako kakatweet sa kanya, busy ako kakasign up sa halos lahat ng fansite niya, busy ako kakacollect ng mga pictures niya and talagang binabalik-balikan ko yung mga for sale Taylor collectibles sa web site niya. Halos bilhin ko lahat ng magazines na siya ang cover o di kaya kahit special feature lang siya. Kahit nga di ko type yung magazine basta siya ang cover binibili ko at kung wala naman akong budget ipinapareserve ko (close na kasi kami ng cashier dun sa bookstore kasi halos every week andun ako, yun nga yung favorite place to hang out namin ng mga friends ko). Marami din akong posters niya. Halos every corner of my room may mukha niya. Then nung Christmas party namin, talagang alam na alam ng mga classmates ko kung ano yung ireregalo sa akin. I received a mug with Taylor’s face on it! Super napasigaw ako sa tuwa. Ang di ko lang maafford eh yung mga album niya. Wala! Di ko kinayang pag-ipunan eh. Kahit ilang beses kong balik-balikan sa music store wala pa rin akong pambili. Wala naman akong trabaho, talagang umaasa lang ako sa allowance na binibigay ng parents ko. Eh ako naman sobrang magastos pagdating sa mga bagay-bagay kaya hindi ko kinayang mag-ipon para sa album niya. Ganun ako kabaliw kay Taylor NOON.

Now, halos makalimutan ko na siya kasi nga may bago na akong fandom pero palagi ko namang pinapaalala sa sarili ko na she was once a part of me, that she was once my inspiration and that she was the one who showed me things that I never saw before and that’s because of her and her songs. Kaya sabi ko di ko siya dapat kalimutan ng ganun na lang. Just because I found someone else kakalimutan ko na siya? NO! Once a SWIFTIE always a SWIFTIE, I will always be her… (I won’t say number one fan because I know there are a lot of Swiftie that are more deserving with that title than I do) big FAN!

         



My Craziness

Let me tell you about this Korean boy band that I really love. The...

  
The DOUBLE-S-FIVE-OH-ONE (SS501) not S-S-FIVE-ZERO-ONE. I'm so crazy about them and yes Ji Hoo is part of that group, he's the leader actually and FYI his real name is KIM HYUN JOONG not KIM HYUNG JOONG. (Clockwise from the leader) Next is KIM HYUNG JUN (the youngest), HEO YOUNG SAENG, KIM KYU JONG and PARK JUNG MIN. 


They are the reason why I wanted to go to Korea so bad. As in ngayon na! But of course I just can't leave my studies and besides I still don't have sufficient savings to afford my trip to Korea. That's why I've nothing to do but wait. 

My favorite of all the members is Kim Hyun Joong, I'm used to calling him 'my leader' or just 'leader'. I first saw him in 'Boys Over Flowers' and I did't like him. My F4 crush is actually Gu Jun Pyo (Lee Min Ho) and my least liked F4 member is Yun Ji Hoo (Kim Hyun Joong). I don't know the reason why I did't like him. But then right after my cousin shared some SS501 videos and songs I started to think that they're actually good. I started to like Kim Hyun Joong, or should I say love him. Haha! I first saw their 'Thanks For Waking Me Up' show, it was so funny that I started to copy their every single show that my cousin downloaded. That's why I have to say that if it wasn't because of my dear cousin I won't even know who these people are. *thankful* 


There are people asking why I love him so much, he's not even that handsome. My answer: Once you look beyond the looks you'll know why, and duh! Are you blind or something? There might be guys that are way more handsome than him but to say that he's 'not even that handsome' is so stupid. He's so good-looking and gorgeous. Leader is so romantic and sweet, he may not be that expressive but still, at some point, he shows what he feels about you, he'll surely leave you speechless. He's smart too, very intelligent, full of ideas and what I like most about him is he's very funny! Funnier than you think. Once he cracked a joke it'll leave you laughing your ass off. Once he laughed it'll be hard for you not to laugh too. He laughs like there's no tomorrow (like me). We both love laughing and making everyone around us happy. Leader has this 4D personality (he's very spontaneous, he's frank and honest but tells it in a funny way and he's also clever in a creative approach). He does things that are not usual, things that only him can do. Sometimes people even say that there's nothing Leader can't do except for holding a bug in his hands. Lol. He's so scared of bugs like dragonflies and etc. He hates sharp objects and he's not that into beaches because he's scared of sharks. That's Leader. Very adorable. I can say that Leader changed my life. He's the reason why I got so interested to KPOP right now, of course if you like someone you'll be eager to know everything about that person.


Ah ewan. Basta baliw na baliw ako sa kanila. Minsan nga ako na mismo pumipigil sa sarili ko kasi ang hirap na huminto once nasimulan na. Ba't ba kasi nakakaadik tong mga to? Parang drugs lang eh. But there are advantages from this craziness, whenever I feel sad or down isang tingin ko lang sa mga pictures nila kung saan nakangiti sila napapangiti na agad ako. And they also serve as an inspiration. Minsan tinatamad akong mag-aral tapos makikita ko picture nila then mapapaisip na lang ako na kung di ako mag-aaral, di ako agad matatapos, at pag di ako agad makatapos, di rin ako agad makakahanap ng trabaho, di ako makaka-ipon ng pang Korea ko, di ko sila makikita. *sigh* So nagkaka-energy ako mag-aral! LOL

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Ngiti

Nabasa ni Mr. Coldman ang blog ko and he replied on my comment sa post niya.

sobrang napaligaya mo ako sa post mo (hindi pala ako makapag comment sa blog mo)Salamat naman at naaaliw ka sakin. Pakabait ka (kasi pinagpapala ang mga mababait) pinagpapala ng semento. lol. 

Masaya lang, bakit ba? Haha. At least nalaman niya kung gaano niya ako nainspire. Just like when you tweet someone you follow on twitter and she received the message you sent. Knowing that person knew how she inspires you is enough reason to be happy. *I'm talking about Taylor Swift, I'm such a big fan*


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Starting Over

I've been a blogger since last year kaso nawalan ako ng time para iupdate palagi yung blog ko and napagod lang talaga ako kasi I find it very complicated. Last week nabasa ko yung blog ni Coldman sa notes of one of my friends sa Facebook and he really made sense. So what I did is pumunta ako sa blog niya and I found out everything about him. He inspired me, mga words of wisdom niya talagang nagmamarka sa utak ko. Pwedeng-pwede na nga magretire si Bob Ong eh. Hehe. Hindi ko alam pero parang nakakarelate ako sa mga confessions niya, di naman ako gay or something pero siguro dahil masikreto akong tao and may something deep inside of me na gusto kong ilabas pero hindi ko mailabas because there are things and people around me na nagbibigay ng mga dahilan to just keep it to myself. 

Coldman also inspired me na magsikap pa sa buhay! Kasi parang na-iinggit ako sa dami ng lugar na napuntahan niya. Haha! Pero honestly I really want to be like him, yung patravel-travel na lang kasi marami ng pera. Hehe. He's also a very good photographer hanga ako sa galing niya. 

Because of the desire to communicate with Mr. Coldman, to tell him how he inspired me and how I admire him I wanted to start blogging again, ang problema nakalimutan ko na yung isang account ko kaya gumawa na lang ako ng bago.

I don't need readers and followers. This blog will work even without the people commenting on every blog that I post. Pero okay lang naman kung meron eh.. Hehe.. I just hope di na to matulad dun sa last blog ko.