Friends, Friends, Friends (1)

I have this friend, I hate her and she doesn't know. But why do I hate her? That's the question I cannot answer. When everybody hated her I was the only one who don't and now that everybody's friends with her I don't like being with her. I hate the way she talk, the way she laugh and smile, the way she dress up, the way she updates her status on FB, the way she acts like she's cute (but duh what's cute about her?), the way she poses for the camera, the way she holds my hand with her wet hands and the way she always asks me to accompany her to everywhere. Gosh, I am running out of excuses. I just don't want her to be a part of my day because I'm now tired of pretending. Whenever she tells me stories, she laughs but they don't even sound funny to me so I would just fake a laugh. Hey, it's not easy to fake a laugh, it's tiring and sickening! And take note, she doesn't know how to listen, she always speak but never listens. She wants everyone to hear her stories, fucking damn stories, but will never ever listen yours. She would just interrupt you in the middle of your storytelling and would insert her story. What kind of friend is she? I would love to kick her out of my life but I just can't because I don't like her being hurt. She'll be asking "What's the problem? What's the problem about me? Did I do something wrong?" and then tears will fall and tada~ Here comes the drama queen? Did I mention that she always cries? She's a cry baby. UGH! My goodness, she can't even notice that she's the problem. It's not  about what she did, it's about her. Her attitude and everything about her is the problem.

She seems nice at first but I am telling you, you'll grow tired being her friend that you'll even find yourself hiding from her sight.

I hate her but I am hoping I could find a good reason not to.

Tears Won't Fall

It’s so weird. I consider myself very emotional because I easily cry to things na hindi naman dapat iyakan. I cry to sad movies, sad songs, sad telenovelas, sad things about Taylor Swift (I cried nung hindi ako nakapunta sa concert niya, its just so sad. I also cried watching fancams from her concert. Sa sobrang inggit ko sa mga nakapanood hindi ko napigilang lumuha), sad things about SS501 (Yes! I really cry about them. Kahit maisip ko lang na namimiss kong makita silang 5 together again naiiyak na agad ako. Especially Leader, he really can make me cry. Even that eagerness to see him and the 5 of them in person makes me cry, I dunno why). Mababaw diba? But when it comes to stuffs na kailangan na talagang iyakan, yung usually na iniiyakan ng mga tao, hindi ko magawang iyakan. Yung tipong down na down ka na, you feel so lonely and sad and you really wanna cry everything out pero hindi mo magawang lumuha dahil may ‘unknow’ force that’s stopping my tears from falling down. Bat ganun? Kung kelan kailangang kailangan kong umiyak for me to release all the sadness inside hindi ko naman magawang umiyak. Buti pa kalungkutan ng iba nakakaya kong iyakan pero sarili kong kalungkutan hindi ko magawang iyakan?? Ang weird lang talaga. Sometimes kasi I just wanna cry everything out kasi wala naman akong maka-usap at wala namang pwedeng dumamay sa akin. My friends are just not like the type of friends that would offer their shoulders for me to cry on. Yes I can tell them my problems but crying in front of them is just not NORMAL? Ganyan talaga kami, gusto palagi tawanan. So I have no choice but to cry on my pillows. Pero yun nga, hindi ko magawa yun. Kahit anong emote ko na at feel na feel ko ng lumuha bat ayaw nila tumulo pero kung sa ibang bagay naman ang bilis nilang tumulo. I always end up having a sad face, like crying without tears. Abnormal ang mata ko!

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Break The Silence

I thought being alone at home is fun because you can do anything you want to do, you can cook the food that your mom is saving for a dinner party, you can drink your brother's juice and you can watch TV without someone nagging at you... But guess what? I am dead wrong! Being alone at a place you call house but is not even considered a home is not fun at all. The silence just drives me crazy. Sometimes I feel like crying but then my tears won't fall down. I wanted someone to talk to but I can't find anyone. I wanted someone to ask something but all I always find myself seeking answers to my own questions. I feel empty every time I'm alone. I just wanted company, someone to talk to, someone to laugh with, someone who could make me feel that I am safe. Its just so lonely being here all alone while your loved ones are afar and happy. When I am at home watching TV satisfies me but when I am here watching TV is just not enough to kill time. Then when I turn off the TV silence fills the air and I can't even break it because I have no one to talk to and it kills me. I hate it!

I just wanna go home! :(

Shame On You

Yesterday I saw my high school adviser, she is a know-it-all kind of teacher. She acts like she's perfect, she slams the claim as the greatest mother in the planet into our faces every homeroom period!!! She is our Values Education teacher so she teaches us 'GOOD' values in life NOT HYPOCRISY. But that's all we see. She teaches us those blah blah blah but she doesn't even live her life with those fucking values of hers! She's so fake!!! She wears fake smile ever time! Then she borrowed money from me, me being this student who's scared to get failing marks from a teacher that I refused to let borrow money from me gave her what she wanted. She promised to pay a week after but duh!!! As expected, she failed to pay after a week! Then she promised again, blah blah blah... Then paid only 83% of the total amount! NICE!! Until now she still has a balance of 17% of what she borrowed. Then I saw her yesterday acting like nothing happened. OH PLEASE STOP BEING FUCKING INNOCENT or something!!! I don't like it, I HATE IT! SHAME ON YOU!!! 


Gosh, I wanted to slap her so fucking hard!

Smell Of Fresh Air

Its good to have a break from breathing polluted air in the city and enjoy the fresh air...

This used to be a river before.

I can smell cow and carabao's shit though.

Thanks A Lot!

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